Sid:  My guest Diane Nutt I’ve interviewed her on television and I’ve gotten to know her. As a young girl Diane you really didn’t know what was going on, but you just had a very amazing intimacy with God, what was it like?

Diane: Yes, I was just always…I loved the Lord so much and I was always finding myself reading the word of God and praying and spending time by myself just worshipping the Lord and just loving Him.  He was everything to me and Holy Spirit was my best friend.

Sid:  Now were you taught that the Holy Spirit could be your best friend I mean how did this happen to you?

Diane: No, I grew up in a denominational church and you didn’t hear much about the Holy Spirit Sid. You were baptized in the Name of the Father, the Son and Holy Spirit but I had such a hunger for the Lord that I just sought after Him.  And many times I would find myself in hiding places and secret places when my sister and my friends would be out playing and I would be seeking the Lord and I just wanted Him.  I wanted everything that God had for me and what I had read in the word of God, and the Lord came and He baptized me with His Holy Spirit and fire and my whole life…

Sid: Now in the scriptures it talks about being baptized in the Holy Spirit and fire, but I don’t hear too much about the fire part; what’s the fire part?

Diane: The fire is very essential in our walk with the Lord because the fire of God will come and in certain situations that fire will come and it will protect you, but yet the fire also comes and it purges you and we need that Holy Fire of God.  I used to think as a young girl that was having hot flashes, but it wasn’t it was the Holy Spirit coming with the fire of God. We so need a baptism of His fire continually in our lives because we need to continually need to be purging our hearts but yet we need that protection Sid of the wall of fire that God brings about us.

Sid:  Actually you had such intimacy with God that as a young child you would have conversations with Him and people actually thought you were crazy.

Diane: Yes, they did I would walk down the hallways of the school talking to the Holy Spirit all the time. He was my friend, He was my best friend and He was my comforter Sid.  He was always there and just going through the different things that I went through I developed a personal relationship with Holy Spirit and people did my friends thought I was crazy because I would be talking to the air as I was walking down the school.

Sid: Now today we have people with cell phones that look that way but that was before the cell phones.

Diane: (laughing) Yes I had people that would actually end up teasing me and they would act like they were walking down the hallway you know talking to people but he was very real to me.

Sid: Was there a time that you actually your spirit left your body? 

Diane: Yes, yes that happened and of course I did not realize it at the time but I would be out in the front yard Sid just laying out there like what a child does looking up in the sky at the clouds and seeing shapes and forms.  And all of a sudden one day I saw myself and found myself looking down at my body and I thought I could fly from the top of our roof out to the Cottonwood tree that was by the street. I did not know how to express that to people.  The Holy Spirit would just come and just invade me and I would be lifted up into this place of such peace and joy and comfort and it was amazing.

Sid: You know Diane what I have noticed is many people that have a strong call of God on their life from even a little child the devil tries to pervert it, tries to kill them and you had many attempts. There was one in particular where there was an automobile got hit by a train and your parents went out with you to look at what was going on and it was a very traumatic thing.  How old were you?

Diane: I was about five years old.

Sid:  And what did you see?

Diane: Well, we were going across the railroad tracks and they went across like this valley and they were really wide apart and that was really scary but you know my parents and everybody were walking across and they said, “You can do it Diane.”  So as I was stepping across the track Sid I looked down and saw a hand that had been severed from a body. Whether I saw that in the natural or I saw it in the Spirit I still don’t know but it brought such fear to me that the left side of my whole body started jerking and going you know into a seizure. My parents took me to the hospital and there they put me on medications.

Sid: I guess that was the beginning of your body craving drugs.

Diane: Yes, yes it was because it was very strong.  Seizure medicine is a very strong medication and the enemy definitely used that to begin to get into my life and get me hooked on drugs.

Sid:  You also had some experiences on the dark side where demons and even a spirit of death came to you.

Diane: Yes, yes a spirit of death would come to me, of course I did not know that’s what it was at the time. I would be sleeping during the middle of the night and this man would come but he would look like to me you know looking back he looked like Darth Vader.  He was very tall, had the black cape and had these eyes that they were just red and they were fiery, but he had a dagger in his hand Sid and he would take that dagger and hold it up above the lip of the dagger and he would take it and he would bring it down to my heart like he was going to stab me and my heart would start racing, I would start screaming.  My mother said that it was a blood curdling scream, they would think that someone was in the house and there was but it wasn’t in the natural and they would have to wake me up and I would literally be swinging and hitting at them because I thought this man you know had gotten me.  And the enemy was definitely trying to kill me, wanted me to have a heart attack because I was such a light in the Kingdom of God.

Sid: And again you had to have all this medication and it was was just setting you up. I don’t understand maybe you can help me Diane how someone with such intimacy with God from a child when you graduated high school you just walked away for the Lord.  How did you do that?

Diane: I did that because my world as a child and how I grew up and what I had been taught and had learned it was just totally destroyed. When me and a friend of mine which was a PK kid, preacher’s kid, we had gone to a movie to see Love Story.  And you know we were taught not to go to the movies, don’t dance you can’t swim with the opposite gender.  So what happened was I saw, we saw our youth leaders sitting down and watching the movie and you know we snuck out of the movie and my life was just shattered at that point.  I didn’t know what to believe or who to believe at that particular point because what I had been taught was being the opposite of it was being done by our leaders.   So I totally turned and got out into the world and just explored and got into the drinking, and dancing, and smoking, and clubbing, and just doing all of that to fill that place that had been so wounded you know in my heart.

Sid:  And you thought you could fill it of course by a wonderful marriage and a family so you got married and everything seems to be going fine, but then you started having these nightmares. One in particular you were rushed to the hospital tell me about that.

Diane: Okay now well the first nightmare Sid that I had after not having had one for several years was in my third trimester of my pregnancy with my first child with our daughter and that particular night I had just you know that spirit came that had come to me while I was growing up had the dagger was fixing to stab me.  And I started screaming of course just bloody murder and my husband was so shaken up he didn’t know what to think or do but you know he kind of woke me up out of it.  And I remember crying out to the Lord and asking the Lord to help me, I said, “Lord help me and please save this baby and save me; Lord let me die but don’t let this baby that is in me die.”  Sid I realized you know for the first time there was a willingness to lay my life down for another life and that’s what Jesus did is He laid His life down so that we could have life.  And from that point on that spirit of death never came back, that was the end of it, that was the end of the tormenting.  So that was the first thing that happened; but the second thing that had happened with the drugs is that I had been doing drugs for about three days and this was long after I had my daughter and had just gotten back into that place again of doing drugs and made the wrong choice.  And you know we govern our life Sid by the choices that we make. So I was once again looking for something to fill that void, that place of intimacy that I had with the Lord as I was growing up.  And so what happened is I was snorting the cocaine had been up for three days and I went into the bathroom and started to draw up another line of cocaine and I heard a voice and this voice said to me, “Diane, if you do this line you will die.”  And I knew right then and there that if I didn’t make the right choice I wouldn’t be living I would not live. So I took the cocaine and I brushed it off the counter into the commode and I had a vial of cocaine and I poured it out into the commode as well.  And I began to just cry out to the Lord…

Sid: Oh, we’re out of time we’ll pick up right here on tomorrow’s broadcast.

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